April 2009 
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Some pics
April 2009 
I made it over the hump
Well when I stepped on the scale this frigid cold Sunday morning, I didn't see fireworks or receive a shower of ticker tape. There were no loud cheers or way to go's being yelled from a crowd. However there was a very enthusiastic "YES" blurted from myself as I read the numbers and saw that I was down 101 pounds!! Proud of myself? Yeah!! Just a little :) This reward is what makes the early morning workouts worth it! It also keeps me motivated to choose a healthy lunch instead of the quick fast food.
It is also the result of HARD work not a quick fix! I am still asked "How did you lose the weight?" My standard answer "Eating right and EXERCISE!!" Count calories! Less in burn more! Make better choices to get the best benefit for your low calories!
I have had several people talk to me about Gastric Bypass lately. On February 16 it will be 13 years since I had my surgery. I am 4 pounds away from the weight that I got down to after surgery. That was 141 pound weight loss then, I had gained 105 pounds back over 11 years. This weight gain was the result of a Morbidly Obese person who was addicted to food, who had emotional issues with food, who was a compulsive over eater that went into an operation to alter her anatomy looking for that quick fix. However came out the Hospital with the same brain and bad habits accompanied with a stomach the size of a thumb. But I, like many millions of people, was looking for that quick weight loss. The kind where I did not have to put out any effort. Also I didn't want to change! I wanted to eat the foods that I was addicted to. The sugar and carbs that were making me fat and miserable were now making me just plain MISERABLE!! My new Thumb size stomach could not handle breads and carbonated drinks. Did that stop me? NOOOO!! Like any good addict, I manipulated my body and found a way! I vomited, I suffered, I even grazed until it didn't hurt anymore! When I gained back the weight, I blamed my Doctor. He must have done something wrong! I needed it redone. I tried to have it redone, 3 times! I spoke with 4 Doctors! I had 2 Upper GI's. I was told that my stomach was small like the size of my fist, but I did manage to stretch the intestine that the stomach drains to causing my stomach to allow my food to fly through me. I even tried to have that tightened up. All because I did not want to put out any effort to change. WHY? FEAR!!!! DENIAL!!!! I hear it everyday! People are having surgery, now there is quite a process prior to the procedure. They are not changing their eating habits! Some think that since they pay attention to portion size they are okay to eat ice cream, and junk daily!!! There needs to be more counseling prior to surgery. The nutrition classes are good but one must want to change, most do not!! Hence the desire for surgery! Change is hard and detoxing does not feel good! Detoxing is a must! One must get off of refined sugar and bad carbs! Just like any other addiction you have to WANT to CHANGE!!!! If not you WILL end up right back where you started!
I am no one special. I have not discovered some new gimmick. I just got tired of being unhealthy and FAT and knew I needed to CHANGE!! I hope that somehow I can help someone realize that they also posses the ability to change and get healthy!
I am still human and I still battle everyday! Some days its a catfight but there are days when it is a WAR, a Bloody take no prisoners all out BATTLE!!!
A journey of 10,000 steps still starts with 1 step! Take it 1 step at a time and you will get there, you will fall! You will not FAIL!!
It is also the result of HARD work not a quick fix! I am still asked "How did you lose the weight?" My standard answer "Eating right and EXERCISE!!" Count calories! Less in burn more! Make better choices to get the best benefit for your low calories!
I have had several people talk to me about Gastric Bypass lately. On February 16 it will be 13 years since I had my surgery. I am 4 pounds away from the weight that I got down to after surgery. That was 141 pound weight loss then, I had gained 105 pounds back over 11 years. This weight gain was the result of a Morbidly Obese person who was addicted to food, who had emotional issues with food, who was a compulsive over eater that went into an operation to alter her anatomy looking for that quick fix. However came out the Hospital with the same brain and bad habits accompanied with a stomach the size of a thumb. But I, like many millions of people, was looking for that quick weight loss. The kind where I did not have to put out any effort. Also I didn't want to change! I wanted to eat the foods that I was addicted to. The sugar and carbs that were making me fat and miserable were now making me just plain MISERABLE!! My new Thumb size stomach could not handle breads and carbonated drinks. Did that stop me? NOOOO!! Like any good addict, I manipulated my body and found a way! I vomited, I suffered, I even grazed until it didn't hurt anymore! When I gained back the weight, I blamed my Doctor. He must have done something wrong! I needed it redone. I tried to have it redone, 3 times! I spoke with 4 Doctors! I had 2 Upper GI's. I was told that my stomach was small like the size of my fist, but I did manage to stretch the intestine that the stomach drains to causing my stomach to allow my food to fly through me. I even tried to have that tightened up. All because I did not want to put out any effort to change. WHY? FEAR!!!! DENIAL!!!! I hear it everyday! People are having surgery, now there is quite a process prior to the procedure. They are not changing their eating habits! Some think that since they pay attention to portion size they are okay to eat ice cream, and junk daily!!! There needs to be more counseling prior to surgery. The nutrition classes are good but one must want to change, most do not!! Hence the desire for surgery! Change is hard and detoxing does not feel good! Detoxing is a must! One must get off of refined sugar and bad carbs! Just like any other addiction you have to WANT to CHANGE!!!! If not you WILL end up right back where you started!
I am no one special. I have not discovered some new gimmick. I just got tired of being unhealthy and FAT and knew I needed to CHANGE!! I hope that somehow I can help someone realize that they also posses the ability to change and get healthy!
I am still human and I still battle everyday! Some days its a catfight but there are days when it is a WAR, a Bloody take no prisoners all out BATTLE!!!
A journey of 10,000 steps still starts with 1 step! Take it 1 step at a time and you will get there, you will fall! You will not FAIL!!
Monday, February 6, 2012
Wrapping up loose ends!!
In just 4 short weeks the Pageant will be behind me. To say that I am not nervous would be the EXACT opposite of what I am feeling! I am as nervous as I can be! So much so that I find myself slipping into old habits! When I am nervous or scared I, like many, want to eat! I find myself wanting to slip into the kitchen and munch. I did not have a great night last night. I had made a healthy dinner, then I wanted something sweet. Well I didn't take out a small village but I did eat some Little Debbie donuts. However today I will redeem myself. In just a bit I am going to the gym for a full workout! I also will be doing a total of 12 body wraps before the event. Hopefully all my efforts will work. I fear that maybe this would have been a better choice after I reach my goal. It is what it is. Next time I will be more relaxed.
In April there is a Memorial Marathon for the OKC Bombing. I have been thinking about doing the Half. I am concerned but again it is fear of the unknown. I am running/walking everyday, but that is a bit different than doing 13.1 miles. My goal would be to finish in 3.5 hours. That is doable. On March 10 FSJL will be hosting a 5K. This is the anniversary of my 1st 5K. Dennis has agreed to do it with me!! That is so awesome!! I am so happy that he will joining me.
I surprise myself! I am so happy that my life has changed. Who would have thought that moving 1600 miles from everything I knew would be what it would take to lose all the weight. My new life in Arkansas has come full circle. New beginnings have taken on new meaning.
In April there is a Memorial Marathon for the OKC Bombing. I have been thinking about doing the Half. I am concerned but again it is fear of the unknown. I am running/walking everyday, but that is a bit different than doing 13.1 miles. My goal would be to finish in 3.5 hours. That is doable. On March 10 FSJL will be hosting a 5K. This is the anniversary of my 1st 5K. Dennis has agreed to do it with me!! That is so awesome!! I am so happy that he will joining me.
I surprise myself! I am so happy that my life has changed. Who would have thought that moving 1600 miles from everything I knew would be what it would take to lose all the weight. My new life in Arkansas has come full circle. New beginnings have taken on new meaning.
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