36 Inches, 3 feet or a Yard...

However you measure it, I have lost IT!!!! My current Stats are 66lbs 7 Sizes 36 inches. When I presented these to Den, he so politely said "WOW that is 3 FEET!!" I said "Don't put it that way" Anyway you look at it, it is what it is!! And I am happy!!! I am now at a weight that I have not been at since I had Gastric bypass Surgery 12 years ago. I have NEVER been this dedicated or this focused. I am proud of myself!! Today is a good day. I am feeling better about myself. My feet are even smaller. I will be going to California in August, I can't wait to see friends and family. I know that everyone will be surprised at the transformation. The more I travel this road the more momentum I gain. I am picking up speed, but we all have off days. I sometimes need a pick me up. Recently I was feeling low and in need of motivation. Our local news shared the Motivating Story of David. An obese man from Charleston Arkansas changing his life and hoping to inspire others. http://www.facebook.com/teamdavidinspires
Take a look at Davids Page and "Like" it. He needs all our support to keep going. I read what he is doing and he keeps me going!! I know that I can do this!
I am almost out of WOMEN'S sizes also!! I went shopping at Dillard's last weekend and went into the Misses Dept and bought Capri's. I can get them up to my rear end just not over. So about 20 pounds and I will be in them!! Hitting the gym in the morning, MOTIVATION!! LOL
My next Goal is Miss Me Skinny Jeans by Halloween with Boots. I hired a Photographer today that is going to put together a Weight Loss Photo Album for me. She is going to do photo's from this point on to track my progress and use my before pictures. It is going to be interesting watching the change. I sometimes cant believe the difference now. Den was helping me fold clothes and he said that he has to look at the pockets to see what jeans are his, since mine are smaller now. It is moments like that... that make me SMILE!!!!
Keep moving and you will shrink too!!!

Some things Cheeto's and Twix cant fix.......

When I started this journey I knew that there would be some healing that would need to be done. Lets face it, we have all heard the quote "It's not what you're eating.. it's what EATING you!!!"  I have had my moments of kicking and screaming. I have had the "cry my eyes out for no reason" well that might be hormonal, LOL. Whatever the case may be I have my moments. Just when I think that I have it all together and I am doing great, I get hit from left field. Today was a biggie!!! I had a new client who was not from here. She had been in Fort Smith for a few years and had lived all over the States. I found her very nice and very informative. I have been feeling a little more comfortable here. I feel less like an outsider and more like I a resident. I am getting around the city better, and I actually run into people out in public now. That is huge for me. Growing up in Clovis, I knew everyone. I have felt very alone here outside of work. The client gave me some sound advise, she said that it would take 3-4 years to get settled in here. She also said that Fort Smith is probably one of the hardest towns to get into the "Circle". People are nice and friendly here but there are some that no matter what when you are new they simply will not let you in. If you did not grow up here then you are always going to be "The Newbie". Most of you know that I faced serious obstacles professionally when I moved here, in spite of that I have become, a local favorite! I work a lot and that doesn't leave me much time for socializing. I hate to admit it but I have not been to Church since I left California. That was such a big part of my life! I have not left God!!! I am still very close to God and my relationship with him is good!! I just have not found a church that I want to be plugged into. Anyway, I have a few people that I simply respect and value greatly! I do not have many friends here but I have made a few. Today out of no where, and she doesn't even know it I am sure, one of them hurt my feelings. I then heard the clients words echo in my head, "You will never break in the circle". I wanna go where everybody knows your name and there oh so glad you came. I want that familiar feeling. Where I can look down at a building and it holds a special memory for me. I want to feel like this is home. I am trying, I want to feel that way. I want people to respect me enough that they wont stomp on my feelings just because I am new and I don't mean anything to them. It is a matter of respect! So I obviously did not take this well!! I really let it bring me down! Just when I think that I have it all under control, I realize that I don't! I had to stop at Walmart on my way home. While in the check out line I was right there next to all the impulse buys. I threw a bag of Cheetoes Puffs and Twix into my cart. I have not had that in awhile!! In the car I ripped open the bag of Puffs and went at it. What a mess! I ate half the Grab Bag size and only 1 bar of the Twix. It is a 20 minute drive from Walmart to my house. About 10 minutes into the drive my binge was over and my belly was sick!! OHH the agony!! I thought I was going to pop from the gas and discomfort. It was horrible. I am not sure if it was the sugar or the fat in the puffs but something did not agree with me!!! I have not hurt that bad in a very long time! My chickens got the remainder of the bag and I threw away the candy bar. I will never do that again! It really isn't worth it! It doesn't fix the issue, I need to get thicker skin. Maybe in California this would never have bothered me, I am in my element there. I need to find that element here. I sometimes feel like I am standing naked in front of the class, Exposed and Vulnerable. I don't like that!!! I guess the healing process is just scratched the surface!! Venting tonight forgive me!!! Had to get it out so I could sleep!
Haven't moved in over a week, doing a 5k Friday NIGHT in this awful heat!!! I am going to collapse!!!
LOL Keep moving and be a friend to someone new in town, they are feeling alone and need new memories.

I hit a milestone today!!

I am the lightest I have been in 5 years! I mentioned before that I had some clothes from the past. I will get back to that! This weekend Den went on a much needed Man Trip with his new 4 Wheel group. I stayed home for some me time! Well I worked, that is my me time. I love my job. I know I need help. Anyway, Friday night I stopped at Fashion Bug on the way home, Shopping is getting better. I saw the cutest skort. I usually don't like skorts but this one was Camo and very do-able! I decided to buy it in a size SMALLER than my last shopping outing. A little nervous, I held it up and thought "There is no way!" I mean this thing looked so small. I hate dressing rooms, so I took it home. After agonizing over it I finally decide to get it over with and try the dumb thing on. As I am holding it up to take one last look before tormenting myself, I opt to leave all the tags on, as I know I will be returning this. There is no way That I can wear this, when it SLIPS on and it ZIPS UP with NO effort!!! I was ECSTATIC!!! I almost danced!! I wore my new outfit Saturday and I got so many compliments and so many people told me that they could really see my progress, well I would hope after 6 DRESS SIZES!!!! YAY!!!
So today I have this very cute pair of BLINGY Jean Crop Capri's that I bought 5 years ago the day after Christmas. I remember very well buying these pants and squeezing into them! I also remember how I would not sit down in them when I had them on in fear I would cut myself in half! I refused to return them, I did not want to admit that I was gaining weight again!! I knew that I had them in a tub in my closet so I thought that if I was able to wear a smaller size then certainly I could wear these Capri's. This morning I get them out, almost expecting them to be to small and they fit actually they are almost to big! I was so happy!! I just can't wrap my mind around my size right now! I still see a person who has not lost anything! My body image is bad!! I can see the scale, I can see the clothes but when I look in the mirror I still see the old me. Pictures shock me. I took a picture Friday night to show my sister how dark my tan was and yes it was darker than I thought but I was also thinner thank I see myself also. I am working on that. I do not want to have a distorted body image. I think that has been one of my issues all these years. I am enjoying the surprises. I am happy with my results.

http://abc.go.com/shows/extreme-makeover-weight-loss-edition

You need to watch this new show. This trainer Chris Powell is awesome!! He believes in Extreme Makeovers alright!! He once helped a man lose 401 pounds in 26 months! It is possible! Change is good! Overcome the addictions and the for the binges.
Burn more than you take in, Keep moving!!!!
Thanks for your support!!!