New Year...new ME!!!

As the Christmas Season begins to wind down a bit, I start to look forward to the upcoming New Year. In the last couple of weeks my diet has suffered as most do during this, the happiest time of the year. I am monitoring it and am pleased to say that I have only gained 3 pounds.2012 for me was a year of maintaining. I had lost the majority of the weight and decided a break was in order. I maintained from March to September. It was nice to learn that I could LIVE and still not gain the weight back. When I joined G-Fit in September I amazed myself! The fact that I get up at 4am is in itself a MIRACLE! The way my body responded was awesome! Having time for me is important but also keeping the weight off the exercise is necessary. I also amazed myself when I competed in the Mrs Oklahoma Pageant. Stepping outside the box and exposing my self in such a way that made me not only feel vulnerable but insecure. It was one of the best moments of my life and I would not change it for the world. Life lessons come in all kinds of packages :)

When I started the journey in 2010 I had no idea what the road would hold for me. I was only certain of ONE thing, I NEVER WANTED TO GAIN THE WEIGHT BACK!! No matter what that meant or took. So here I am on the starting line of 2013 and I don't make resolutions as those get broken. I am moving up the ladder of my journey. Changing the diet again and stepping up the exercise plan. I WILL HIT MY GOAL this year!!! It i time. Plastic surgery is on the agenda as well. :)

"Every journey of a THOUSAND steps, still begins with ONE step!!" I have taken this journey ONE step at a time. It is by far a MARATHON not a SPRINT

WOW 2 years and still going......

Yesterday was the 2 year anniversary of my lifestyle change :) I am sure that there were some doubters that I would be this successful. This is why I did not tell anyone until after the weight loss became noticeable. There is just something to be said about "Making up your mind!!"  The most asked questions I get are ALWAYS "How did you lose it" "What diet did you do"

People really do NOT like hearing when I say "Good old fashion eating right and exercise!!" Everyone wants the quick fix. However I am living proof that the quick fix does not work!!! You can LIVE in the real world and still maintain a healthy lifestyle. 

With the Holidays in full force right now you will encounter parties, alcohol, fudge, ect. It is POSSIBLE to partake in some of the festivities and lose weight. "SHUT the front door!!" Seriously though, if you eat RIGHT 80% of the time then 20% of the time you CAN sample some of the Holiday treats. Now this does not mean an indulgence daily, there are healthy treats that will keep your waist from expanding. If you go to 3 parties this month then 1-2 glasses of wine, Red preferably, a taste of fudge or sweet treat, a slice of pie is really not going to knock you off track. The key is what you do the rest of the time. Have a game plan. Increase your cardio a little. Be a little more diligent in your regular meals. Add more veggies. While at a party there is almost always a veggie tray. Load up on the fresh veggies and bypass the dips. If you get full on veggies then you are less likely to eat the bad stuff. Keep in mind that once you quit eating bad then when you do indulge it has an impact on your system. 

I do have some recipes that will make you think that you are cheating when you are not. I will be posting them soon. I also LOVE to cook this time of the year. I usually bake every weekend and Dennis LOVES that. I did tell him that I will make a few of his favorites but I am also making things healthier!! 

Enjoy the Holidays, don't over think it. If you gain a few pounds don't fret about it. Get back on track and you will lose it!! Remember the reason we celebrate. Its the most wonderful tine of the year!!! 

Merry Christmas and Happy New YOU in the new year!!!

Dr Oz Detox cleanse

I did Dr Oz's cleanse this week. The Thanksgiving Holiday wasn't bad for me however I swelled like a BALLOON!!! I had watched the episode on the cleanse and I had been wanting to try it. In true Dr Oz style he put together a team of Doctors that he respects. He always chooses the best in their field. Each doctor has something to contribute. The vegetable and fruit combinations that make up the shakes are a perfect match to give your body just what it needs. Each shake also contains a serving of a healthy fat.It makes me crazy when I hear people, who claim to be experts, say that you shouldn't eat HEALTHY FAT! Yes there is such a thing!! Almonds, olive oil, pistachios, coconut oil and avocado are PRIME examples of HEALTHY FAT!!! They help control cholesterol, aid in digestion, hydrate skin and much more.

The cleanse was easy. I did not feel deprived nor did I get hungry in between. The best part I let loose of all the water retention and I lost 4 pounds :)

If you feel the need to regroup or detox then you must do this cleanse. I am going to be doing this once a month. I think I will be doing the breakfast shake daily for awhile.

For years I was a dieting MISFIT, then I woke up and decided enough was enough! In my quest for healthy living I have transformed in a Ms-Fit! I am not where I want to be, but I am getting there with Clean Eating and daily workouts.

I am becoming my best ME!! I am stronger and healthier than I thought I could be.

I have done the research and I have tried and failed many diets. It ALL comes down to science, Eat less BURN MORE!!! Every BODY is different. You may have special dietary needs while others may not. You might be a runner where one may be a lifter. Your blood type can have an effect on how you eat also. I am "O Negative" therefore my body responds better to a high protein where "A" blood types do better on a predominantly vegetarian diet. Factors like these are crutial to your long term weight loss success.

Every once in awhile you may have an off weekend or a Holiday dinner. You will feel sluggish or off. I do not like fasting for weight loss, however this is a great detox and cleanse to get you back in the game.

Put together by the Great and Powerful OZ!! I would only recommend this cleanse!!! Dr Oz is awesome!!!

 

Do you REALLY know what those labels mean?!

How many really know what the meaning of Organic is? As a consumer, we need to do our homework and learn just exactly what we are feeding ourselves as well as our families. The USDA and the FDA has very loose rules for the Food Processors and Growers. There are pesticides that are dangerous. However "ORGANIC" isn't always what we think it is. So before you go and buy that over priced bag of carrots get to know what the real meaning is.

http://www.essential-organic-living.com/definition-of-organic.html 

Hormone Free, Free Range and All Natural are other labels to beware of.

Clean Eating can seem so overwhelming at first. It does not have to be. You can take small steps and still get there. Some extremists will clear out their cabinets and buy all new food and spices. Well that is not practical. I just began to incorporate new items when it was time to replace old ones. Now I did throw out items I just refused to eat no matter what. There were only a few of those. I started buying more fresh veggies and fruit. I started cooking more. Learned to cook quick meals. Played with spices. It is all about experiments!! Our taste-buds have been programed to certain foods. Wake yours up!! Try new things, introduce yourself to new flavor combinations. It is a whole new world. If it is going to be a lifestyle it has to be good!!!

 

Hidden GROSS ingredients in your FOOD!! EWWW

In this phase of my journey I have made it my mission to NOT eat packaged food if it contains ingredients that I cannot say! Plus processed foods are just bad!!! When I started reading articles about what is put in our food I began to dig deeper. Whats worse is the FANCY names they give these disgusting items! However the ultimate betrayal was finding out that our FDA ALLOWS all of it!! Human Hair and Duck Feathers are found in Marshmallow Cream, Beetle Secretions are the coating on Jelly Beans, and would you seriously EAT the secretions that come from a Beaver's Anus? Why in the HELL would you?! OH MY GAWD!!! However you do everyday and much worse. You feed it to your kids. That yogurt you buy the Kiddos that you think is good for them cause it says FRUIT on the box?! Well guess again!! It is all SUGAR and contains NO FRUIT!! Those Blueberry Muffins in the vending machine, they don't even contain blueberries!! Almost every item in the grocery store that says BERRY on it, does NOT have any berries in it! The little blue pellets are actually soy flour and flavorings. 

Castoreum is a flavoring commonly added to enhance anything raspberry. Logic would tell us that it probably is a concentrated raspberry derivative, or at least coming from some type of berry. And I guess you might call the anal gland of a beaver berry-like, especially since that is the source of castoreum. I'm sorry, castoreyummmmm.
Ever send back a meal at a restaurant because you found a hair in your sandwich? Well, joke's on you—that bread may actually have hairs intentionally in the mix. L-cysteine or cystine can be made from human hair and/or duck feathers.
Confectioner's glaze sounds harmless enough. You might think it's a syrup coating, which it is. It just happens to come from the Lac beetle, who converts tree sap into resin, similar to a bee's production of honey. The Lac resin is collected, crushed and made into food glaze.
Carmine also called Crimson Lake, Cochineal, Natural Red #40, C.I. 75470, or E120, is a red coloring frequently found in candies, fruit drinks, fruit flavored yogurt and cosmetics. It is actually made from the dead, ground-up husks of female red beetles.
Next time you're thinking about enjoying a nice gum chew, you might want to ask yourself how you feel about rolling sheep goo around in your mouth for hours. Lanolin, which is also often added to body care products, is the oily substance secreted by sheep into their thick wooly fur. Gums will often list the ingredient as "gum base" because of standards where manufacturers are not required to list out each ingredient.
We weren't all that shocked to see Taco Bell called out for its less-than-beefy burrito meat, which contains a host of nasty ingredients including silicon dioxide, which is, yes, sand. It's also added to Wendy's chili and a bunch of other processed food items to prevent caking

  The chemical fertilizer ammonium sulfate is added to some chain restaurant sandwich breads in order to feed yeast in the baking process. 

Propylene glycerol is found in antifreeze and can cause skin and eye irritation. Fast food places use it in their pre-packaged salads to keep the greens crisp

Fast food salads can't do anything right. In addition to sexy-time lube ingredients in the lettuce, many fast food salad dressings include titanium dioxide. The same chemical can be found in various paints, sunscreen, and a typical semiconductor

People love to tout the benefits of yogurt. It can keep you regular, supply some of your daily calcium and protein, and still tastes like dessert. But no one talks about how many popular brands of yogurt contain stearic acid and glycerin, which come from beef and pork by-products

 

What does a bread bun have in common with your toned yoga buns? Why, it's azodicarbonamide, a chemical found in fast food buns, yoga mats, and the soles of sneakers. But that's just the tip of the plastic iceberg. Some fast food meals are made up of 70-plus ingredients — most are hard to pronounce, and some are banned as food additives in Europe.

Tainted beef isn't just disgusting, it's deadly. The fatty, low-quality meat served at fast food joints is more likely to contain E. coli and salmonella, so it's treated in ammonia before being cooked and served. Yes, the same ammonia used to clean ovens and floors, and the same ammonia that can be poisonous. If you think a burger smells gross when it's cooked, imagine the chemical fumes when it's raw

This is just a start to get you thinking about packaged food. So next time you shop, don't just read the calories and carbs ect read on....If you cannot SAY it do NOT EAT IT!!!!

Healthy Comfort Food :)

Since my journey began I have been on a quest for good yummy tasting food. Lets face it if it tastes like cardboard we will NOT eat it!! Seriously, I did not get all the way to 368 pounds eating food that tastes bad. Bad for you yes, but it tasted good. Dennis likes to eat, and all too often I ask him what he'd like for dinner and his response is "WHATEVER YOU ARE COOKING!' Now as I have mentioned previously DENNIS IS PICKY!! But hey I am up for a challenge. Making healthy meals that taste good and a picky man will eat "Yeah I got this"

As you all know by now, I eat CLEAN! Paleo Style is probably close to my diet. Unfamiliar with Paleo it is the Caveman Diet, whatever they would've eaten is okay. I make a few exceptions. I eat beans, whole grains and sweet potatoes. 

 I also try very hard to stay away from Pre Packaged food :( I make my own Salad Dressings and Sauces unless they are free from preservatives and hidden yucky ingredients. If you cannot pronounce them DON"T EAT THEM!!

The things that the FDA allow in our food is not only disgusting its toxic! Don't even feed it to your kids. 

With that said I have been making some pretty good meals from fresh natural whole foods that taste good! 

When you start cooking all of your own food, you will need to build up your Spices and Kitchen Tools. I buy whatever spice sounds interesting. I have some that I cannot live without. Sea Salt! It is simple but it is so good! Mediterranean Spiced Sea Salt I use it on everything! LOVE IT!! Roasted Red Curry, Roasted Cumin, Roasted Ginger, Hot Shot Pepper (Red and Black Pepper), Pepper Flakes, Turmeric, Sage, Thyme, Tarragon, and Cinnamon!! I like spice. Play with your spices to see what flavors you like. Coconut Oil is my GO TO OIL now. It can handle high heat and it is so good for you! You can smear it on your skin too :) 

Veggies are now my fillers. I add veggies to everything. Sweet Peppers and Mushrooms are my staples now. I eat a Fried Sweet Potato several times a week. Don't be skeered!!! Fried is not always a BAD word. I start with a little Coconut oil and add fresh diced sweet potatoes, sea salt, sweet peppers, and cinnamon. Cover and turn often. In the last five minutes remove lid and allow to brown. Drizzle just the tiniest amount of Agave Nectar for a little sweet and you will swear you are cheating!!

Agave Nectar has a lower Glycemic Index than Honey. It is all natural and is not refined like sugar. I use it in place of sugar, however I have learned to live with out Sugar and the Sweet (most times)

Chocolate Covered Frozen Bananas remember those? Oh my!! I take 2 medium bananas and slice in 1.5 inch chunks place on a parchment paper covered plate, pierce each chunk with a toothpick and place in freezer. After 1 hour melt 90% Cocoa (half bar) and 1 teaspoon of Agave and Coconut oil. It is best to do this in a double boiler. If you don't have one put 2 cups of water in a sauce pan and place a bowl over the top and melt away. Once melted roll banana chunks in chocolate to cover and return to parchment paper. Place back in freezer for a few minutes to harden. They are super yummy!! The chocolate has less sugar than a serving of fruit. This should make 3 servings. You can chop almonds fine or use unsweetened coconut and roll the chunks in after they are coated before they harden. This is nice treat to have on occasion or retrain your kids and husbands from unhealthy fattening ice cream. 

 

I bought these cute little pots at Sams Club and they are the perfect size for a single serving or "His and Her" meals. Make lasagnes and really design your own. They are Cast Iron non stick enamel made by Wolfgang Puck $20 :)

I will be making Chicken Pot Pies in these tonight, yes HEALTHY!! I will post up my recipe later!! Yummm

 

Round 1 of G-FIT done and oh the results!!!!

When I started G-FIT a month ago I went in believing the pounds were going to just FLY off of my body. 

Day 1 was Booty Boot Camp wow! After I ran a million miles, I was told to run more and at the end of that lap drop and do 10 push ups! Really!? I have never been able to do a push up in my life! I had to lay on my belly and push up my upper body. When I left that day, I knew it would probably never get easier but it would never be that HARD!! 

When I saw that day 2 was going to be Abs I was so excited! I thought "WOW we get to lay down! This will be easy" WRONG!!! I would have rather RAN a million more miles!! You have heard "Abs of Steel" well mine are still in the MOLTEN state. I struggled to get the exercises right. By that night I could barely walk. I pretty much shuffled. Epsom Salt and Aleve were my friends. 

By Day 3 the things I cut from my diet was causing havoc within my body. The muscle pain and detox was HELL! I even Google'd how long would it last. 

By week 2 I can see changes in my strength. I even did 1 push up! I was amazed how well my body was responding to this. I was falling in love! 

Week 3 I gained 2 pounds. I was floored! I became angry. I knew that I hadn't cheated so why, how?! 

As I continued to give it my all both with my diet and in the fitness, I was still making changes. I cut Unsweet Tea from my diet and added water. Anyone who knows me knows that is HUGE!!! I now drink 88 oz of water a day. But I was still making myself crazy. Why did I gain? I kept hearing "Muscle weighs more than FAT" well actually it is denser than fat so it takes up less room but it weighs the same. Sorry I'm Anal, I can't help it. However don't tell a fat girl she is going to gain weight. That is not what I wanted. However don't accuse me of cheating when I have NOT! By the end of week 4 I was up 3 pounds and heart broken. My body was stronger. I was getting complimented

left and right. It didn't matter. I kept hearing FAILURE in my head. With this round winding down and the round in the works I knew I had to figure this out so I didn't give up. 

I began to look into this "Muscle gain". That is a possibility since I did not have any muscle on my body. I did need to build it back to give my body the incinerator to burn the fat. What I also learned is that every time you begin or change your routine and you have muscle soreness you have caused microscopic tears in your muscles. Those tears can hold up to 4 pounds of water in them until they are healed. This could take a few weeks. With the vigorous training we were doing and as sore as I am it makes sense. I was relieved! I have to know the black and white of everything. 

Today was our final weigh in and measurements. I gained 0.5 lbs and I lost 14.25 inches

That is something I could live with.

Next round I hope to see a pound reduction but I am not going to freak out.

1 week down now a cleanse begins

Tomorrow starts not only week 2 of G-Fit but also a Shake only 3 day Cleanse. Now I don't mean smooth and fattening creamy milkshakes. These are good for you not bad tasting protein shakes. You simply drink 1 in place of each meal and drink lots of water. 3 a day for 3 days, that is IT!! 

The cleanse is supposed to jump start weight loss, curb cravings, and detox. 

I am committed to the process. After 1 week I can see changes in my body. My diet is much better. I am very happy with the program after this first week. I know I can do this. I may have to add some veggies and fruit in the event my body rebels, but I will give it my ALL!!

I am loving this program! I have heard from many how addicting it is. I can see why. Wednesday was only day 2 and already I was in agony. Even though I could hardly walk, I just kept pushing. I have to modify almost every move but I keep going. I will get stronger and I can do this. These women are like a big family. We all encourage each other and help one another. 

We have all heard the saying "It takes a village to raise a child" well it also goes for weight loss. This is one reason why Weight Watchers and groups work. Accountability but also camaraderie. 

During our Pilates and Yoga class the instructor played Praise and Worship music. It was awesome! I Walked in with and allowed all the stress to melt away. 

Mathew 18:20 For when two or more are gathered together in my name there I am in the midst of them.

I am thankful and grateful for this program.

I can do this!!!

Stay tuned, positive changes are coming!!!

Phase 2 of weight loss journey

G-Fit

For months I have been seeing from clients and on Facebook all about this new craze called G-Fit. It is an extreme exercise boot camp so to speak going hand in hand with a High Protein Clean Eating Diet. I knew I needed this however I just kept putting it off. Well last night I made the commitment to attend the 6am class.

I woke up at 4:45 this morning and hit the ground running. Thankfully we only had orientation today that included measurements, weigh in and before pictures. As happy as I am with my results, I am still not where I want to be. Twenty months ago I made a similar commitment when I changed my lifestyle. Overall I have made great changes. Like many I hit it hard and then decided I needed a little break. Just a short breather to get my bearings and rest a bit. Well it is now September and I am still on that break. I haven't gained anything but I really haven't lost either. I keep going up and down just a few pounds. 

Well dammit I have worked to hard for this!! I am not going back. I made a lifestyle CHANGE!! For life not for a moment. I like the results I was getting so hence G-FIT!!

Tomorrow is day 1. Gabby (owner/trainer) says that I will cry and puke. No she didn't point her finger at me and specify "YOU". I am prepared to be in pain both emotionally and physically. Change is hard and it hurts. That is what makes us grow. I have learned that I HAVE to exercise to lose weight and maintain. Also I have to eat clean to feel better. I have been flirting with junk food and I am feeling lousy for it. 

I believe that once you have the knowledge you can no longer play dumb. I mean its your health.

Introducing new habits and breaking old ones can be painful, but carrying 180 extra pounds is also painful. My knees and back are grateful that the weight is coming off.

Stay tuned more to come!!!

Body shock

I recently went to California for Vacation. Prior to my venture, I had made up my mind that I was going to eat BADLY!! I went to San Francisco and ate a half of a loaf of sour dough bread with butter and garlic, shrimp and crab cocktail and Mrs Fields cookies. While in the Bay Area I took advantage of fresh fish and chips along with Chinese Food :) 

One of the things that I miss most about California is the FOOD!!! Let me tell you I did not hold back. 

In Fig Garden Village there is the best french bakery bistro, La Boulangerie. If you are looking for the best croissants, baguettes, rustic bread, french onion soup ect they are the place. I indulge every visit home. El Toro did not disappoint with my number 5 dinner special. Their Chili Releno is like no other.  Me n Ed Pizza's Sausage, Olive and Mushroom is worth waiting for. I have yet to find Pizza that even comes close so I don't even bother. Starbucks Skinny Caramel Macchiato along with my new found love, the Sugar Free Fat Free Vanilla Ice Cream from Cold Stone Creamery with Fresh Strawberries and Almonds (kid size),allowed me two guilt free treats a day.

There were 3 visits to In and Out Burger, Japanese Kitchen, IHOP, McD's, Full o Bull Sandwich Shop, and even good home cooking!! I am sure that I am leaving something out but you get the picture. I ATE!! I was not watching it and I was not carefully counting calories. I was on vacation. I had told myself that I was going to gain at least 5 pounds. I mean that is what people do, right?!

I also swam daily. Walked more while I trailed the mall and the local shopping centers even while in San Fran. 

One thing that I was not aware of was the message that my body was sending to my brain. You see I had plateaued. My body had become so used to the way I was eating and the amount of low calories I was eating that it had started to hold onto what I was putting in it. So when I began to feed it again, my metabolism relaxed and allowed my body to burn what it was storing. 

When I returned home earlier this week, I knew vacation was over and it was back to reality. I jumped on the scale prepared for its bad news. What I was not prepared for was the 2 pound weight loss, yes I said LOSS, that I saw. I also have lost 2 more pounds this week since I returned home. 

I had read about this but was never ever going to test it. I have always had very bad luck in this area and it only mean trouble for me. So imagine my shock when it worked, and I wasn't even testing fate. I was prepared for the gain. So I will accept the loss and get back on the healthy eating. I am excited and motivated!!! I know that 10 pounds is just waiting to drop :) we shall see.

I didn't see this coming

When I started this weight loss journey I wanted it to be my new lifestyle. Prior to starting on the path to health and well being I researched and prepared myself for the change. I wanted "THIS TIME" to be different! I vowed that I was never going to go through this again. I have gained and lost way to many times.

I set the date and psyched myself that this was "IT" and the Journey began. I was so focused, so driven!! The diet changed the weight came off. A month later I started the second part of the lifestyle change and began exercising. I didn't want just any routine I wanted to RUN!! I made my mind up that I was going to do it. I mean I had never seen a FAT runner so it had to be a good all over workout. I signed up for a 5K and had the full support of friends and family. I even played little tricks on myself. I live 40 minutes from work and the gym in 30 seconds from work. I took all my make up and hair stuff to the salon where I work and left it there. I'd go to the gym do my workout, shower and get ready at work. I did this everyday, just about. 

We have heard the saying "NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS LOSING WEIGHT FEELS" and for me this was a mantra! The more I lost and the smaller I got the better I felt!!!! I was stopped by people and constantly told how awesome I looked and how I motivated them also. I was on a high!! I knew I would do this forever!!

Nothing prepared me for "WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN"!!! I have always been very cut and dry!! Grey area's do not exist in my world lol. I must understand WHY and WHAT with EVERYTHING!!! This has made me crazy throughout my life.  Dennis likes to refer to it as OCD. It is a joke in our relationship however it really isn't funny anymore. When I set out on this journey I read an article based on a book "IT'S NOT WHAT YOU'RE EATING, IT'S WHAT'S EATING YOU"

I knew that I would have to change habits and behaviors but I didn't realize the impact of the emotions I would deal with. 

I allowed life to get in the way. It was subtle at first. I was too busy to prepare my lunch so Mc Donalds it is!! I was so busy I haven't eaten all day so Mc Donalds it is!!! I can have this cookie I haven't had much to eat all day. These were my justifications. Slowly I began to allow some of my bad habits to weasel back in to familiar territory. I took a "BREAK" from the gym then started P90X at home and quit. Now I am fighting with the same 6 pounds. It is PISSING me off!! I was so dedicated so focused and driven! How do I get back there? I still have like 50 pounds to lose. 

Today I went back to eating CLEAN and cutting out processed sugar. I am going to "FAKE IT TIL I MAKE IT"!!

I have been faithfully watching the Olympics. I have always loved them. These games have meant more to me. I get more sappy as I get older. I watch the Gold Medal winners and I wonder, did they ever have a moment where they fell? I know to regroup and start fresh again, but where is my MOJO? Dr Evil has taken it and I must get it back baby. Said in the voice of Austin Powers :)

Hello my name is Lynne and I am addicted to Mc Donalds French Fries. I swear if I never eat anything there again I will dream about those darn FRIES!!!

Just like any other addict I can NEVER indulge as I will INDULGE everyday!!!

Please feel free to share with me your motivations for keeping on track!! I am willing to try anything. I do not want to regain the weight!!!!

I hate this

The night that my dad died, when all 9 of us hit the Hospital Parking lot, 7 lit up Cigarettes. I spun around and asked them if they were not all just in the same room as I and watched my father take his last breath? he died from COPD with Emphysema brought on by years of smoking!! It angered me that they all chose to smoke. Although when I left the hospital I went straight to McDonalds and I ate a Filet O Fish with Large Fries and a Diet Coke. Then stopped for candy on my way back to dads house where my family was gathered. It would be 26 more months before I would realize, and make the decision, that my lifestyle was killing me and it needed to change. I have lost 3 cousins in the last 18 months from complications brought on by Alcohol Addiction. 2 of them bled to death from Ulcers. That is a horrible way to die!! These were young men that had so much life left. Their lifestyle got the best of them. I have lost 2 women in my family both 62 years young. Karen died 1/2/12 and Georgie died today. They both died from a massive Heart Attack, here one minute gone the next. Both of them had interacted with me on Facebook the day they died. Neither woman was overweight, however both were smokers. I think that my Aunt Georgie had quit. Karen did not know that she had heart problems to the families knowledge. I am pretty sure neither did Georgie,
It breaks my heart that these members of my family died. I hate that I will not see them on my Facebook page anymore or will I be able to visit them. I am sad for their children and grandchildren.
I encourage all of you to go an get a physical. Talk with your PC Dr and have all the Blood work and  an EKG. It might save your life! Take a look at your lifestyle. Walk more and eat less!! Cut back on the junk. Eliminate soda even diet!!! Do not put it off!!
Heart disease is the #1 cause of death in men and women yet it is the MOST avoidable!! 85% of ALL heart disease can be avoided with early detection, diet, exercise, and possibly medication!!!
Do not wait!! My Aunt was playing on Facebook and was gone an hour later!! My cousin cooked her family dinner and was visiting with her son and daughter in law and was gone an hour and a half later!! The owner of the salon I work in his Brother is 42 and last Thanksgiving had to have triple by pass surgery. Thankfully he lived through his heart attack. It does not care how old you are!! It will strike you! I was told that I had a heart attack, Praise God I did not!! However if I had not changed my lifestyle and lost weight that might have changed!!!

I am begging ALL of you please just go get checked. You may feel fine, it is a Silent Killer!!!

What a weekend!!

I completely stepped outside my comfort zone this past weekend!! I participated in the Mrs Oklahoma International Pageant. I had so much fun! However secretly I was struggling!! Mentally I was a mess!!!
During the what was the most exciting time in my life in a very long time, my lack of self confidence was screaming at me!!! I have a great group of supporters and that is so awesome!! I know that I am Loved!!
Leading up to Pageant I was nervous, worried that my opening dress would not fit,, worried that I would not lose enough to get into my evening gown, and worst of all what if I was laughed off the stage!!! The day that my fitness wear came in I put it on ran into show Dennis and swore there was NO WAY IN HELL I was going to parade on stage in that thing!! Can you say Vera Di Milo aka Jim Carey circa In Living Color?? Not pretty!!! In spite of myself I pushed onward! Even though the seamstress ruined my dress I went forward!!
When I arrived at the pageant orientation, I was late. I was frazzled. When the opening number dresses were handed out my fear was confirmed TOO SMALL!!! I was not going to go out on that stage in front of possibly hundreds of people looking like the Purple Michelin Man. With the help of the Asst Director and some sewing skills I pushed forward!!! With the Fitness Wear and some help from spanx I pushed forward!!
I did this pageant just being myself! I didn't use the makeup artist or an interview coach. My second dress was bought off the clearance rack for $45. The judges got all of me!! Everyone was so nice to me and so supportive!!
However during rehearsal my insecurity got the best of me.  I really wanted to run!! I almost walked out 100x's!! I really had to talk myself into staying!! I did the same thing at my first 5K!!I just kept telly myself that I was not there to win, I had already won! I was not there to prove anything to anyone but me!! I had come too far to turn back!! I blew my onstage question, or did I?! People take away what they want. They hear what is important. Maybe to the judges I did not do well enough for a good score. I let my guard down and wore the altered dress, BTW every girl complained about the dress!!! I looked okay in the Fitness Wear (thank you spanx) and received a lot of compliments in my gown!! On the way out to our car people from the audience were approaching me praising me! Telling me how great I did. It was awesome!! I really started to feel 10 feet tall!!
If I would have allowed all the obstacles to stop me I would have let myself down! I am so happy that I did not RUN!!! Now I am ready for what is next!! So...WHAT'S NEXT???
Everything you want is on the other side of FEAR!!!!

Some pics

April 2009

 Dennis and I in the same shirt that I used to fill out all by myself!!

 Dennis and I Christmas 2010

 2012 Mrs Sequoyah County Pageant photos

April 2009 That is the face of a very sad woman

I made it over the hump

Well when I stepped on the scale this frigid cold Sunday morning, I didn't see fireworks or receive a shower of ticker tape. There were no loud cheers or way to go's being yelled from a crowd. However there was a very enthusiastic "YES" blurted from myself as I read the numbers and saw that I was down 101 pounds!! Proud of myself? Yeah!! Just a little :) This reward is what makes the early morning workouts worth it! It also keeps me motivated to choose a healthy lunch instead of the quick fast food.
It is also the result of HARD work not a quick fix! I am still asked "How did you lose the weight?" My standard answer "Eating right and EXERCISE!!" Count calories! Less in burn more! Make better choices to get the best benefit for your low calories!
I have had several people talk to me about Gastric Bypass lately. On February 16 it will be 13 years since I had my surgery. I am 4 pounds away from the weight that I got down to after surgery. That was 141 pound weight loss then, I had gained 105 pounds back over 11 years. This weight gain was the result of a Morbidly Obese person who was addicted to food, who had emotional issues with food, who was a compulsive over eater that went into an operation to alter her anatomy looking for that quick fix. However came out the Hospital with the same brain and bad habits accompanied with a stomach the size of a thumb. But I, like many millions of people, was looking for that quick weight loss. The kind where I did not have to put out any effort. Also I didn't want to change! I wanted to eat the foods that I was addicted to. The sugar and carbs that were making me fat and miserable were now making me just plain MISERABLE!! My new Thumb size stomach could not handle breads and carbonated drinks. Did that stop me? NOOOO!! Like any good addict, I manipulated my body and found a way! I vomited, I suffered, I even grazed until it didn't hurt anymore! When I gained back the weight, I blamed my Doctor. He must have done something wrong! I needed it redone. I tried to have it redone, 3 times! I spoke with 4 Doctors! I had 2 Upper GI's. I was told that my stomach was small like the size of my fist, but I did manage to stretch the intestine that the stomach drains to causing my stomach to allow my food to fly through me. I even tried to have that tightened up. All because I did not want to put out any effort to change. WHY? FEAR!!!! DENIAL!!!! I hear it everyday! People are having surgery, now there is quite a process prior to the procedure. They are not changing their eating habits! Some think that since they pay attention to portion size they are okay to eat ice cream, and junk daily!!! There needs to be more counseling prior to surgery.  The nutrition classes are good but one must want to change, most do not!! Hence the desire for surgery! Change is hard and detoxing does not feel good! Detoxing is a must! One must get off of refined sugar and bad carbs!  Just like any other addiction you have to WANT to CHANGE!!!! If not you WILL end up right back where you started!
I am no one special. I have not discovered some new gimmick. I just got tired of being unhealthy and FAT and knew I needed to CHANGE!! I hope that somehow I can help someone realize that they also posses the ability to change and  get healthy!
I am still human and I still battle everyday! Some days its a catfight but there are days when it is a WAR, a Bloody take no prisoners all out BATTLE!!!
A journey of 10,000 steps still starts with 1 step! Take it 1 step at a time and you will get there, you will fall! You will not FAIL!!

Wrapping up loose ends!!

In just 4 short weeks the Pageant will be behind me. To say that I am not nervous would be the EXACT opposite of what I am feeling! I am as nervous as I can be! So much so that I find myself slipping into old habits! When I am nervous or scared I, like many, want to eat! I find myself wanting to slip into the kitchen and munch. I did not have a great night last night. I had made a healthy dinner, then I wanted something sweet. Well I didn't take out a small village but I did eat some Little Debbie donuts. However today I will redeem myself. In just a bit I am going to the gym for a full workout! I also will be doing a total of 12 body wraps before the event. Hopefully all my efforts will work. I fear that maybe this would have been a better choice after I reach my goal. It is what it is. Next time I will be more relaxed.
In April there is a Memorial Marathon for the OKC Bombing. I have been thinking about doing the Half. I am concerned but again it is fear of the unknown. I am running/walking everyday, but that is a bit different than doing 13.1 miles. My goal would be to finish in 3.5 hours. That is doable. On March 10 FSJL will be hosting a 5K. This is the anniversary of my 1st 5K. Dennis has agreed to do it with me!! That is so awesome!! I am so happy that he will joining me.
I surprise myself! I am so happy that my life has changed. Who would have thought that moving 1600 miles from everything I knew would be what it would take to lose all the weight. My new life in Arkansas has come full circle. New beginnings have taken on new meaning.