Am I hormonal or just plain losing it?!

In May I will be 43, yuk!! I'm sorry but I really do hate the fact that I am getting older. There are times when I actually forget that I am old, in my mind I am still 18ish. Maybe that is why I am pushing so hard to be athletic now before I completely fall apart. LOL!! Anyway, I have been having these days lately, more than I care to admit, that I just feel blah! Sometimes almost sad. For no reason! I ignore it and push past it. I find that I feel better if I workout on those days. There are times that I feel like I could just snap. I have to stand back and count to ten. As much as I hate to admit it I am probably on the verge of menopause. I have not had hot flashes just yet thankfully. I am going to break down and go to a local pharmacy that specializes in Biodentical Hormone Replacement Therapy. I think that I need to get tested. I remember when my mom went through this and I vow to not make my husband or co workers suffer. I can just feel the crabby (that is being nice) well up inside me. I hate it! I just want to run away from myself. Now it doesn't happen all the time. It kinda started yesterday and is still hanging around today. Little things irritate me like sand paper on my skin. I mean stupid little things. When I think about it, even I am like "really?" the last time I remember feeling like this was right before Christmas. Then it was uncontrollable crying for no reason. Now I can control the crying but everything makes me cry. I feel silly. I try and act like it's my allergies. Even if it isn't sad or tear worthy, I still cry. All of this behavior is just out of charachter for me. I just go from raging lunatic to crying fool in 2.5 seconds. I just don't know when it is going to hit. So lucky me I think that I am entering that stage yay! Hmph!